When You Want To Give Up
A FEW THINGS. When I began this blog I did not realize what a challenge it would be. When I was on Facebook it was shared among friends--now that it is a public blog I am always challenged to watch what I say. I can't just talk about a person or persons on a public domain. Legally and Ethically it isn't in my best interest. So I have struggled on how I want to come across when writing my blog. I have had messages come to me that I have given the "Disney" version of what has truly happened in my life and they were not happy about it and they are absolutely right. I feel limited in a public blog verses my private Facebook page.
I have avoided writing this blog because I was not sure what I wanted this blog to be. A travel blog, an inspirational blog, a venting blog, maybe a gossip blog. What is my direction here? Do I even want to continue? I realized maybe I was going down the negative tunnel when my Facebook post the other night was this:
Needed a breather so I went back to my roots. I went home.
1. I am starting to really dislike people.
2. I am starting to really dislike my country.
3. I am starting to really dislike Christians.
4. I am starting to really dislike what the church is standing for.
5. I am tired of the script---the same script I have heard for years.
6. I am tired of the blame game and the finger pointing.
7. I am tired of motivation by FEAR.
8. I am tired of people who do not want to learn anything new.
9. I am tired of the hatred.
10. I am tired.
I. Am. Done.
This status scared me. I have grown up working with the public, I have no issues with public speaking, I have built my life working in the public, and I realized that I was done. I am 44 and I never want to leave my house again. Let the world burn. Everyone just SUCKS. I didn't even recognize myself anymore. I was triggered emotionally and I wanted to just tell everyone to screw off. I seriously was done.
What is happening in our world is tragic. Absolutely TRAGIC. And because ANGER is the easiest form of emotion the people are just adding onto this tragedy. Twitter and Facebook are nothing more than accessories to the anger. I have friends switching to just Instagram and I promise you it is just a matter of time when the anger takes over that media.
I can't quit social media--my jobs absolutely rely on social media. Twitter and Facebook KNOW this. They know many people NEED their social media. It's like Wal-Mart...we hate how they treat their employees but damn it we are still going to shop there because we save money. We are never going to get out of this tragic loop and the anger will just grow. It really will.
So what made me take a little breath and a step back to rethink my anger. That would be my nephew Ethan.
While visiting my hometown I attended my nephew's swim meet. Now watching a swim meet reminded me of my days when my kids were in shooting sports. It is seriously like watching paint dry. And we couldn't seem to keep up with when he was swimming which was kind of frustrating. However he wanted us to watch him swim the mile and that one we were NOT going to miss.
I had looked through my nephews swimming program and all of his events for the day were highlighted. There were a lot--he competed ALL DAY. It was the end of the day--he swam his 400 and they gave him a 15 minute break and he would swim the mile. The mile was the LAST event and his first time ever swimming this event. There were a lot of people that had cleared out so it was nice to be able to actually watch him swim. And he swam it. After swimming ALL DAY he swam that mile and he swam that mile like it was the first time in the pool. I was exhausted watching him. He finished. In his age group I believe he got 3rd. I was just beyond proud, impressed, and he just filled my heart with joy because he wanted it. I want to bottle that determination and sell it to those like me who were ready to just quit on the world.
So thanks to my nephew I have refocused my thoughts and have refocused my goals. I just needed to see someone not quit.
This morning while scrolling through social media I found this and I will probably keep it on my fridge as a reminder on what the purpose of social media is.
1. Social Media is a conversation
2. Social Media is customer service
3. Social Media is advertising
4. Social Media is connection --Sarah Beth Rosa
I am going to continue to blog--and I am going to blog about whatever I am feeling at that time. It could be travel, inspirational, a venting session or just plain gossip. You will need to tune in to find out. Please like my Facebook page "A Few Things" and I am also on Instagram.
I am going to continue clearing out the clutter on Social Media and continue with my 2019 goals.
I was told to take time everyday for a vacation. Whether it is getting in my car and listening to music, grabbing a book or going for a walk. Walk away from what is bringing me into a place where I am becoming part of the tragedy. Be the solution. Be the determination. Be the positive in a very dark world.
Until next time...Kristi
I have avoided writing this blog because I was not sure what I wanted this blog to be. A travel blog, an inspirational blog, a venting blog, maybe a gossip blog. What is my direction here? Do I even want to continue? I realized maybe I was going down the negative tunnel when my Facebook post the other night was this:
Needed a breather so I went back to my roots. I went home.
1. I am starting to really dislike people.
2. I am starting to really dislike my country.
3. I am starting to really dislike Christians.
4. I am starting to really dislike what the church is standing for.
5. I am tired of the script---the same script I have heard for years.
6. I am tired of the blame game and the finger pointing.
7. I am tired of motivation by FEAR.
8. I am tired of people who do not want to learn anything new.
9. I am tired of the hatred.
10. I am tired.
I. Am. Done.
This status scared me. I have grown up working with the public, I have no issues with public speaking, I have built my life working in the public, and I realized that I was done. I am 44 and I never want to leave my house again. Let the world burn. Everyone just SUCKS. I didn't even recognize myself anymore. I was triggered emotionally and I wanted to just tell everyone to screw off. I seriously was done.
What is happening in our world is tragic. Absolutely TRAGIC. And because ANGER is the easiest form of emotion the people are just adding onto this tragedy. Twitter and Facebook are nothing more than accessories to the anger. I have friends switching to just Instagram and I promise you it is just a matter of time when the anger takes over that media.
I can't quit social media--my jobs absolutely rely on social media. Twitter and Facebook KNOW this. They know many people NEED their social media. It's like Wal-Mart...we hate how they treat their employees but damn it we are still going to shop there because we save money. We are never going to get out of this tragic loop and the anger will just grow. It really will.
So what made me take a little breath and a step back to rethink my anger. That would be my nephew Ethan.
While visiting my hometown I attended my nephew's swim meet. Now watching a swim meet reminded me of my days when my kids were in shooting sports. It is seriously like watching paint dry. And we couldn't seem to keep up with when he was swimming which was kind of frustrating. However he wanted us to watch him swim the mile and that one we were NOT going to miss.
I had looked through my nephews swimming program and all of his events for the day were highlighted. There were a lot--he competed ALL DAY. It was the end of the day--he swam his 400 and they gave him a 15 minute break and he would swim the mile. The mile was the LAST event and his first time ever swimming this event. There were a lot of people that had cleared out so it was nice to be able to actually watch him swim. And he swam it. After swimming ALL DAY he swam that mile and he swam that mile like it was the first time in the pool. I was exhausted watching him. He finished. In his age group I believe he got 3rd. I was just beyond proud, impressed, and he just filled my heart with joy because he wanted it. I want to bottle that determination and sell it to those like me who were ready to just quit on the world.
So thanks to my nephew I have refocused my thoughts and have refocused my goals. I just needed to see someone not quit.
This morning while scrolling through social media I found this and I will probably keep it on my fridge as a reminder on what the purpose of social media is.
1. Social Media is a conversation
2. Social Media is customer service
3. Social Media is advertising
4. Social Media is connection --Sarah Beth Rosa
I am going to continue to blog--and I am going to blog about whatever I am feeling at that time. It could be travel, inspirational, a venting session or just plain gossip. You will need to tune in to find out. Please like my Facebook page "A Few Things" and I am also on Instagram.
I am going to continue clearing out the clutter on Social Media and continue with my 2019 goals.
I was told to take time everyday for a vacation. Whether it is getting in my car and listening to music, grabbing a book or going for a walk. Walk away from what is bringing me into a place where I am becoming part of the tragedy. Be the solution. Be the determination. Be the positive in a very dark world.
Until next time...Kristi
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