A Few Things

 A FEW THINGS-- As I have said in previous blogs I believe generational trauma and ego are what's really wrong in this world. We have this notion that family is family and we just need to accept what was done, what was said, and just move on. I disagree. I believe if someone is toxic, they don't need to continue spreading that negativity onto me. And it took 47 years to figure that out. Therapy and depression meds included. When I started this blog I needed an outlet to discuss all of the crap going on in my life. It was an amazing venting process for me and it also put me in touch with people who were going through similar situations and we all felt like we weren't alone. And it was good for my soul. Good to be around people who were misunderstood, who were mistreated souls. Not feeling alone is amazing when you feel alone. In a previous blog I signed settlement papers with my husbands family. I signed off that I will never have access to their farmland in death or divorce...

 A FEW THINGS-- It is really funny how the universe works when you start to pay attention.  After talking about MIND (Moving In a Different Direction) last week I received my new books for a coaching class I have been in this past year. This class is not because I want to be a life coach. I am just now getting MY life together--not sure I could help anyone else in the Life Coach Department. This class is about tackling what is really going on in my life and the steps I can take to improve it. Some of the classes have been quite challenging. Each month I learn something new and try to implement it in my life. And I have met some of the most amazing women.  This month there are two books I needed to read. "The Little Book of Intentional Living" by Carolyn Boyes and "You Get Me" by Gary Chapman and Jen Mickelborough. They are both simple reads with a lot of meaning.  Intentional living and love languages are really not my cup of tea. When I think of the love languages ...

A FEW THINGS-- I celebrated a Birthday in the month of June. Every year I get a little older and I appreciate more and more with what I have. This year I turned 47--yes--I am getting close to 50. YIKES. It was a great birthday--three of the four kids were home. It would have been perfect if all four kids were home but work schedules don't always work out. For my birthday I felt it was time to update my camera. The camera I have has been all over the world and was a great asset for me when I was stalking Peyton Manning safely, from a distance, while he played for the Denver Broncos. Thousands of wonderful pictures and so many adventures I feel it is time to pass the camera on to my son to use for 4-H photography projects and I update to a camera that might challenge me a little bit more. The other gift I am giving myself is Chanel Perfume. I have loved Chanel since I was knee high to a grasshopper. And I have never owned one item from Chanel. So I decided to treat myself to some Cha...

 According to my blog the last time I was on here was in March of 2021. So like most things I do-- I start out all excited and ready to dedicate myself and then it just kind of fizzles. In all honesty I have struggled with what I want to blog about, how much I want to blog, and is it worth it to blog. My main purpose of blogging: I needed an outlet for all of the drama going on in my life. I wanted to talk about depression and anxiety because I didn't want anyone to feel like they were ever alone while fighting these battles. And I wanted to expose the assholes that were hurting me. Then things changed. I got better. A lot better. I learned coping skills, I went on medication, I talked about the shit going on in my life, and I owned my part of the shit that was going on in my life. And then I took the biggest step of all and I went to a lawyer. After fighting Covid-19 in December--yes I FOUGHT it and I still have lingering issues like headaches and brain fog in June. I actually dec...