A Few Things

A FEW THINGS. This weekend is Oscar weekend. I look forward to this every year. Growing up I had two wonderful friends who I spent my weekends either going to the movies, or renting movies. I have a wonderful movie poster collection and so many memories of laughter and pointing out all of the flaws, beauty and blue screens. Those were some of the best times of my life. I didn't change much after high school. I love movies, every time I had a spare couple bucks I would go to the cheap movie theaters. It was my escape from the world of that just didn't seem nice. Although it wasn't the same as being with my two best friends but I still laughed, cried and enjoyed my little escape. Now that I am in my 40's I STILL love movies. I became obsessed with Pre-Code Movies. Those were classic black and white movies that were made before 1934. I started reading books about the women in those movies. My heart ached for what the women went through. Many of the women were t...

A FEW THINGS. First off--thank you to everyone who reached out and encouraged me as I discussed my depression. I can't stress enough that if you are struggling with depression to please reach out to someone. And for those that are wondering if someone you are close to might be depressed--please reach out to them. I personally struggle reaching out--and I assume others do as well. I am finally sleeping at night. I actually slept 10 hours one night this weekend. It surprised me too. I am continuing to journal. I am taking my medication, and I am reminding myself to take showers. Believe it or not--a shower is very difficult when fighting depression. As I journal--more and more things about my life are coming to surface. I have found that I am in a state of transition. My oldest daughter went off to college in the fall of 2015 and it was quite a struggle but I had three other kids to take care of so I was occupied. Now I have another daughter going off to college in the fall of ...

A FEW THINGS. When I got back from Japan/Taiwan I had a different outlook on life. I was introduced to two cultures that were truly beautiful and amazing people that I am proud to say are my friends. I also had a more positive outlook on working with women. And I built some confidence that I really missed from my high school days. I had struggled getting adjusted to my depression medication when I got home. I was not sure what was going on--but I didn't feel I needed to take them anyway because I was a changed woman. Life was so good for me I won't miss them. About three weeks went by without taking my medication and I still felt OK but I was not sleeping. I was only getting between two and four hours of sleep. I wrote it off as to much caffeine. I am just fine. Sometime after that--my daughter called and she had made a decision to change her major. She told me she didn't feel the field she was going into was going to be rewarding to her and she was going a differen...

A FEW THINGS. I suffer from Depression/Anxiety and PTSD. There I said it. There are many that feel there is no such thing as a mental health issue. That only PTSD happens with soldiers who have endured combat. I am here to tell you that those are myths. There are some that believe that depression/anxiety is not a genetic issue. I can also say that's a myth as well. I have been working on my family tree and I have found that there are many signs of depression and recorded suicides in my family tree. There are some who are suffering in silence right now and I am here to say--come forward. There is help out there for you. I was diagnosed with Depression/Anxiety and PTSD over 5 years ago. I had been involved with narcissistic people for a very long time. What they were saying behind closed doors was nothing like the stellar reputation they had in public and I chose NOT to follow the unwritten rules. What I got in return was a smear campaign that consisted of my husband not being th...