What Is My Time Worth?
A FEW THINGS.
First off--thank you to everyone who reached out and encouraged me as I discussed my depression. I can't stress enough that if you are struggling with depression to please reach out to someone. And for those that are wondering if someone you are close to might be depressed--please reach out to them. I personally struggle reaching out--and I assume others do as well.
I am finally sleeping at night. I actually slept 10 hours one night this weekend. It surprised me too. I am continuing to journal. I am taking my medication, and I am reminding myself to take showers. Believe it or not--a shower is very difficult when fighting depression.
As I journal--more and more things about my life are coming to surface. I have found that I am in a state of transition. My oldest daughter went off to college in the fall of 2015 and it was quite a struggle but I had three other kids to take care of so I was occupied. Now I have another daughter going off to college in the fall of 2019 and a son going off to college in the fall of 2020. So what the hell am I going to do with my time? And do I want to continue what I am doing now--do I want to grow and expand the projects I am in or were those projects directly related to the kids? I am going to have time--what is my time worth? Time. What is my time really worth?
My time has always been revolved around my kids. I really loved that motherhood title. And I didn't mind tossing my time to the side for my kids. I was involved in everything they were involved in. I was lucky--my husband worked really hard so that I could be there. All of my projects--side businesses, side jobs all worked around my kids schedules and now--I will only have one kid and one schedule. It is so foreign to me. It has always been the three kids and me--well and the little one.
So I am now in the process of thinking about my time. And how much my time is worth. Is my time being used right? Am I getting paid enough for my time when it comes to side businesses, my projects, my passions? Do I have new passions that are starting to grow in my heart? Can I let go of the projects that I have loved for years for something new? The answer is yes.
My kids transitioning to adulthood are making me transition with them. I look so forward to being more of a friend than a mom. My oldest is getting married--I may have grandchildren some day. What is my time worth now? Let's not forget my 9 year old son. When you have three to work with that limits you financially--and in some cases emotionally. A mom gets WORN OUT!!! But soon--it is going to just be my son in the house. What new adventures are in store for us? The sky is the limit!
So I have started to take all of my projects and put them in writing--I have looked at the money being made and the time I have spent in those projects. I have also looked at the emotional side of some of these projects and if some of them are serving more of a negative purpose than a positive one when it comes to my mental health.
I have also added new projects that have sparked interests. I am in the process of researching a project--thanks to my sister in law who has planted that seed. I have always been afraid to take chances because I have a fear of failure. I am working on changing that thought process to failures are lessons.
I have truly dreaded transitions in the past--but lately--after really looking at my future and putting these changes on paper along with making very big decisions-- I feel better. So much better. Bring on the future--I am ready.
Until Next Week--Kristi
KRISTI SPILLS THE TEA-- Over the next few months I will be making a lot of changes to my personal and public Facebook pages. I have 800 plus friends on my personal page and only interact with about 100 friends. I normally clean up my friend list once a year--my rule is--if we haven't interacted in a year--we just don't need to continue connecting on social media. It can be blamed on Facebook's algorithm or whatever--but I have realized who my circle is and that is the circle that I plan to keep. I have two professional pages--"A Few Things" for this blog. It is my baby and "Blue Skies Travel" which is under construction. I encourage all of my readers and supporters to like "A Few Things" on Facebook. This transition should be completed by September. It is a big project--much bigger than I expected. Kristi
First off--thank you to everyone who reached out and encouraged me as I discussed my depression. I can't stress enough that if you are struggling with depression to please reach out to someone. And for those that are wondering if someone you are close to might be depressed--please reach out to them. I personally struggle reaching out--and I assume others do as well.
I am finally sleeping at night. I actually slept 10 hours one night this weekend. It surprised me too. I am continuing to journal. I am taking my medication, and I am reminding myself to take showers. Believe it or not--a shower is very difficult when fighting depression.
As I journal--more and more things about my life are coming to surface. I have found that I am in a state of transition. My oldest daughter went off to college in the fall of 2015 and it was quite a struggle but I had three other kids to take care of so I was occupied. Now I have another daughter going off to college in the fall of 2019 and a son going off to college in the fall of 2020. So what the hell am I going to do with my time? And do I want to continue what I am doing now--do I want to grow and expand the projects I am in or were those projects directly related to the kids? I am going to have time--what is my time worth? Time. What is my time really worth?
My time has always been revolved around my kids. I really loved that motherhood title. And I didn't mind tossing my time to the side for my kids. I was involved in everything they were involved in. I was lucky--my husband worked really hard so that I could be there. All of my projects--side businesses, side jobs all worked around my kids schedules and now--I will only have one kid and one schedule. It is so foreign to me. It has always been the three kids and me--well and the little one.
So I am now in the process of thinking about my time. And how much my time is worth. Is my time being used right? Am I getting paid enough for my time when it comes to side businesses, my projects, my passions? Do I have new passions that are starting to grow in my heart? Can I let go of the projects that I have loved for years for something new? The answer is yes.
My kids transitioning to adulthood are making me transition with them. I look so forward to being more of a friend than a mom. My oldest is getting married--I may have grandchildren some day. What is my time worth now? Let's not forget my 9 year old son. When you have three to work with that limits you financially--and in some cases emotionally. A mom gets WORN OUT!!! But soon--it is going to just be my son in the house. What new adventures are in store for us? The sky is the limit!
So I have started to take all of my projects and put them in writing--I have looked at the money being made and the time I have spent in those projects. I have also looked at the emotional side of some of these projects and if some of them are serving more of a negative purpose than a positive one when it comes to my mental health.
I have also added new projects that have sparked interests. I am in the process of researching a project--thanks to my sister in law who has planted that seed. I have always been afraid to take chances because I have a fear of failure. I am working on changing that thought process to failures are lessons.
I have truly dreaded transitions in the past--but lately--after really looking at my future and putting these changes on paper along with making very big decisions-- I feel better. So much better. Bring on the future--I am ready.
Until Next Week--Kristi
KRISTI SPILLS THE TEA-- Over the next few months I will be making a lot of changes to my personal and public Facebook pages. I have 800 plus friends on my personal page and only interact with about 100 friends. I normally clean up my friend list once a year--my rule is--if we haven't interacted in a year--we just don't need to continue connecting on social media. It can be blamed on Facebook's algorithm or whatever--but I have realized who my circle is and that is the circle that I plan to keep. I have two professional pages--"A Few Things" for this blog. It is my baby and "Blue Skies Travel" which is under construction. I encourage all of my readers and supporters to like "A Few Things" on Facebook. This transition should be completed by September. It is a big project--much bigger than I expected. Kristi
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