Monday 3-22-2021

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 A FEW THINGS WITH KRISTI JANEEN

One of the wonderful things about living in "Middle of Nowhere" South Dakota is the amazing sunrises and sunsets. After 25 years they still take my breath away. 

This morning was no different than any other day. "Middle of Nowhere" South Dakota is at that really ugly stage. Everything is still pretty dead. The trees are just starting to show life and a little bit of green is starting to show in the grass. Ants have started to show up on my kitchen counter so I know that warmer days are ahead. 

Taking C-bug (my youngest) to school this morning we swerved to avoid hitting a pheasant with the car and then slowed down to take in the beauty of a very small new herd of antelope hanging around a few miles away. Coming into town I see that the winter wheat is starting to come out of the ground. This was a crop my husband maybe planted once. He was not a fan. Maybe it was to risky? Not sure.

After dropping of C-bug off at school--making arrangements for his dental appointment in the afternoon I went to fill up the car with gas and was asked if I missed the Greenhouse. A part of me does--but I said in a very snotty way that I didn't miss anything. I have a bad attitude with certain people. I made a note about that and will work on it. 

After loading the car with stuff for Goodwill. Balancing the books, checking in with my husband and my mom. I took a deep breath and headed back to town to get my anxiety ridden son. He hates going to the dentist. He has gone to the dentist more than he has gone to the doctor. I kept reminding him that we are almost done with this stage. Not that the braces stage and bite correction are any better--but sometimes you just need to be the cheerleader. 

His anxiety level when it comes to going to the dentist--reminds me of me in an airport. I love to travel--but when I think about going to an airport I am nothing but a hot mess. I am terrified that I will get lost, miss my flight and will have no choice but to spend the rest of my life in that airport--never to be found again. God honest truth. Anyone who has traveled with me knows I have to be there AT LEAST three hours early. And I need at least two hours in between flights so I can get to my gate. I have never traveled alone to another country--always with a group--and I am somewhat relaxed because I don't have to worry about getting anywhere--I just follow. 

There is a conference coming up in Tanzania (fingers crossed that COVID-19 is under control by then) and I want to go so bad--but am crippled in fear of traveling through airports by myself. What really bothers me is that this anxiety has just come to surface. I never had issues in airports before and I have not had any issues in an airport yet so why? NO CLUE.

I told C-bug about this and he thought it was so funny. He had a great appointment at the Dentist. We have on more cleaning scheduled and then it will be time for braces in the fall. This is my third round with this. My oldest daughters went through similar dental experiences. I am not sure genetically where the bad teeth came from but I can honestly say--it sucks.

Tonight we rest and start again tomorrow. 

Kristi 

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