Wednesday 3-24-2021

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 A FEW THINGS WITH KRISTI JANEEN:

It always amazes me what wildlife you see in "Middle of Nowhere" South Dakota. Pheasants--I am really tired of swerving to avoid hitting you every morning! It was nice to see a small herd of deer, a raccoon and a muskrat. I have never seen a muskrat before and all I can say is--oh my--they are really ugly creatures.

Today was my first day training with my host travel agency. I just keep thinking I am going to send someone to the wrong country. The anxiety of screwing up can consume me from time to time. I found out today that this fear is very typical and that there is always someone there to double check me if needed. So thank God my co-dependence can continue on into the career world.

I have been sharing this blog with a small circle of friends on Facebook and I have had a few people message me with some questions so I thought I would try to answer them.

"What happened between you and your dad?" Nothing really happened between us. I don't feel his companion is good for him physically, mentally or financially. As much as I love my dad I can't really continue to watch him make poor decisions. I will always love my dad. I have also mourned the loss of not having him in my life.

"What about your brothers? What happened?" I am choosing not to answer that question. I have just decided to step away. The door isn't closed though.

I had a lot of friends who did not realize that I had someone very close to me who is transgender. I am willing to do a blog answering any question you may have just as long as it encourages education and acceptance. 

The awesome part of the day is that I received my first COVID-19 shot. And to add to that--my friend B. was having her second shot at the same time! So of course we had to go to supper. 

B. and I have been friends for over 20 years--until I decided to be an A-hole. You know--you go to therapy to talk about all of the A-holes around you and THEN you have to own up to the A-hole you are...and that is where the real work begins. In this situation I was the A-hole. I take full responsibility for it and I own it. It was a long couple of years not having her in my life and I am really glad she is back in it. 

Own it. As hard as it is to do we really need to own it.

Kristi


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